August 27, 2020

Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to just be as you are without thinking about it. Does it feel free? Do you feel less in control? More in control? Do you feel lighter, without the constant weight on your shoulders?

This morning, I went to get a bottle ready for Babe, but there weren’t any. Husband, who is always on baby dishes duty, had loaded up the dishwasher but not run it. A minor mistake that ended up being a pain in the butt for me at 7 AM when I need a clean bottle and don’t have one. I cleaned and sanitized a bottle, rand the dishwasher so I’d have bottles for the rest of the day, and moved on.

Except I didn’t.

Option 1: Tell Husband about this. Let him know how inconvenient it was for me so that he thinks about it in the future. That way, he will not make this mistake again.

Option 2: Say nothing. The problem was already solved, there is nothing he can do to rectify the situation now, and this isn’t a thing that happens often.

My instinct says Option 1. It makes me feel powerful and in control. It is easy to be mad and right.

I ended up choosing Option 2. It is what I would want someone to do for me, because no one likes to make a one-time, small mistake and be called out on it. And contrary to what I like to think, I make mistakes often, and I’m sure Husband covers for me and doesn’t feel the need to bring it to my attention. And I’m trying to be a better wife/person, so I feel good about this decision.

But, man, why did it have to require so much thought?